oh tiresome blues..begone thy feathered harpy!!i feel like im projecting a past romantic life! at long last i started writing!! by no means am i even remotely schooled in how but i shall try and learn all i can..books etc.what i do "know"as in my art is not ,simply not to look at toomuch of other's works-rather establish my own "voice"so yes witha glass of port and the soundtrack to "perfume story of a murderer"blaring in my ears i thus began my first chapter and here it comes please dont get cross.childhood.i hear you scream.cliche!!!! well clint where should i begin??backwards??or from the beginning??
deciding on "beginnings"i scribbled duly some chicken scribblings and soon went nigh-nigh(unfortunately)i have soo much in my head and in my heart to pour out.It is incredible how awful my illness both mental and physical have been,almost like shut down .total.shut.down.Basic rudimentary stuff like shopping and socialising are fine but i feel like im grinding to a halt.Quite a horrid feeling.As much as i hate and loathe being thought of as a whiner i simply must put keyboard to blog and write this down.i mean i feel like ther'es no one right now.effing loneliness folks is like a sublime death.slow.lingering.painful.but i hav emy "morphine"my hope as it were to sustain me and hopefully with a change of meds i may recover some creativity and get back to paul.get back to me ascheesy as that sounds.daily life right now consists of the internet and lethargy.simply torture.when i feel so much inside needs expressing.i never ever thought that i could get this bad.Who wants to hear such doldrums?/really now??so away i must go and shower and keep painting and writing..dinner is lentil pasta and sweet italian red wine.
You know, it's people like you who make it worth my while to subject myself to the negative shit. (Blog going up in a few; THEN you'll understand.) x o x
Thanks, sweetness! // It's all the result of the beauties at Hairroin... I've got a red velvet crush on those scissor-wieldin' geniuses! // And while your Edie background is gorge, I gotta admit it's a total 'trigger' for me. // The line about "strawberries" immediately comes to mind from Ciao!Manhattan -- you know the one... about "the ultimate all-time high?" // Immediately, my ears start ringing and I'm overcome by a state of vertiginous fluster// And even if I take as small as action as navigate away from your page, or wander across the world to the farthest corner: I'm all too aware that now that I've had more than just a taste. but a full-on lapping at the pleasure zone of my brain that there's an insatiable hunger for more: // Lick again... Lick again...// And it'll never. Ever. Stop.
You wanna be nearer the top? // It's so secret how that's achieved, princess... // log on and comment me here (as well as my blogs on 'Renegades of Style') more regularly. // Oh and, it doesn't hurt if you want to be among *my* 'Top F(r)iends' that you-- AHEM-- HAVE ME IN *YOURS,* DARLIN'...
Oh darlin'...let's not even get started on the "broke artist" tip. // If I told you my financial sitch at the moment, you'd think I'm B.S.ing you-- SERIOUSLY. // We can worry about the painting when and if I'm even *semi* solvent... for now, thanks for the birthday wishes, and "Let's not talk about despair!" // x o x o x
Um, HELLO! It doesn't hurt to use this site now that you're "up on it," sweetness... (Oh and, just saw that you have Cottonmouth Kisses listed under your favorite books. How many bonus points do you get for THAT one, my friend? heh heh heh...)
